Worse than a nightmare

You used to be the stranger
A boy I would never dare to stare
A person I would never think of being so close
Someone who lived in the other side of the world

Until one day you said hi
I returned it with a smile
Without a hint of a shy
You brightened my world with your light

Now you're the most important thing
You've done so much
And I would never dare to let you go
But fate say no
You're starting to go
Leaving me back in the darkness

It's a typical thing
You came, waking me up from my nightmare
Then you went like nothing ever happened
Giving me a much more worse nightmare than I had before

Now you're the most important thing
You've done so much
And I would never dare to let you go
But fate say no
You're starting to go
Leaving me back in the darkness

I can do nothing but cry
Crawling inside my blanket
Wishing you never came into my life
Hoping this was all just another nightmare
The worst nightmare I'ver ever had

You were the most important thing
Until the fate say no

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So? Watcha think? Give me your opinion, please?
Okay I'm not gonna lie, this thing's really happening to me and I don't know what should I do. So i just grabbed my itouch and went to the 'notes' and began to write down everything i felt. And it turned out to be like this. How do you like it? Oh and one more thing, I'm actually searching for someone who can make the what is it call? music or erm melody yea whatever you know what i mean. So can you? If you can just tell me, write me a message on my chatbox. Thankyou, i love you :)

Short note; writers block

Okay, so as you see i'm really sucks at updating lately. I just emm you know... having writers block. And I'm sure you know how annoying is THAT.

I got this story stuck on my head and when I reached for my laptop to write it down it suddenly GONE. yes GONE as in VANISHED as in NOT IN THERE ANYMORE. You know that's freaking sucks. Ergh I hate writers block.

So I'm thinking to take sometime off from this story called Can't You See. SURE, I will continue it someday but just not this time. And HELL NO! I'm not gonna give up this blog, in fact, I will post ANOTHER story. I got this really great idea and I'm working on it right now. You'll see.
Oh and one more thing, I'm kinda into writing lyrics right now since he asked me to help him with his new song. Hemm so i guess i'll be posting some of it wen I'm in the mood.

Okay I think I'm done now, so much for a short note but yeah I have to tell you this. So all I'm gonna say now is HAPPY READING YOU ALL :)

xoxo, TRISSI

Can't you see? (chapter 5)

(Prissy's POV)

It had been 3 days since that 'excellent conversation', and this morning Bebi had to go to Italy for the race. Yep, he'll be gone for the next whole two weeks! And that was definitely sucks! I laid my back on the passanger seat and sighed, a bit too loud I bet, cause I could feel my brother's curious look on me.

"What?" I said. Annoyed.

He looked away, too fast, "Nothing." He continued to concentrated at the road as he was on the mission to take us both home safely from the airport.

Maybe I didn't notice it but it looked like I had let out another 'a bit too loud' sigh again which made my brother finally asked, "What is wrong with you, Priss?"

I tried to give him an innocent look, "Ehm? Nothing. Why did you ask anyway?"

"Cause there's no nothing."

"What do you mean?"

"Oh well okay than Priss," He smiled, "Did anybody ever tell you that you're a horrible liar?"

"I am not lying!"

"Oh yes you are young lady" He grined, "C'mon babe, you know you can always tell me everything?"

"Yeah right." But I told him anyway. I told him the whole story, since he was one of Bebi's closest friends.

"Heeeem let me guess! You're missing him already right now, aren't you?"
My face turned red, "Hmm, you think?"

"Great! And you're afraid that he'll find another girl in Italy?" His face were ligthen up with winning.

"Shut up!" Were he a mind reader or something? "Ehm well, now what am I supposed to do?"

He thought for a while then smiled, I didn't know why but I smiled too. "I don't know!" Then he shrugged his shoulder while he also smirking. My jaw dropped, all I could do was just completly dazed with my mind planning more than 10 ways to kill him. What the hell was wrong with my brother?!

(Koyo's POV)

Did you know that I really hate monday? I hated waking up early on monday, I hated the history lesson on monday, and what I really hated the most was I had to see Prissy walking around the school with Bebi also walking by her side. I slamed my locker closed and steped back. My shoulder accidentaly hit 'something' and that 'something' was dropping another 'something' on my foot.

"Aaaaw!" I looked down just to found out that a thick english dictionary has just fell on to my foot. Before I could grab it a hand already took it.

"Oh I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to. I'm really really sorry..." She looked up and I could see her face. I was in shock I barely could talk nothing. I just stood still and kept on starring at her.

Did I mention that I had a crush on Prissy since the first time I saw her? Have I told you that it was her who was standing in front of me, accidentaly dropped a thick dictionary, aplogized to me, and was starring at me like i was a creature from other space? Eh, wait what? a creature? from other space? OH GOD! I quickly came back to reality as I realized that Prissy was starring at me weirdly.

"Emm.. are you... oo.. okay? I.. I am soooooo sorry," She sounded kinda scared.

I took a deep breath, "hey hey relaxe, I'm fine. No need to say sorry. I'm the one who supposed to say sorry, I hit you on the first place afterall." I managed to give her a smile, a nervous smile.

"Oh thanks god you're alright. Ehm well, I have class and I'm gonna be late, bye" She waved her hand,

"Hey wait!..." I tried to stop her, but before I knew it she had gone, "Oh well yeah bye."

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It's original, it's MINE :)

Sorry for not putting the song quote. I really don't have idea what song should I put in. Any suggestions maybe? Oh well again, sorry for the really freaking late post. Okay, what's gonna happen next? We'll see in the next chapter ;)

Can't you see? (Chapter 4)

(BEBI'S POV)

I laid on my bed, thinking. What should I do? Should I do what Ioo told me? Should I keep this love for my self? Should I give up? Or... should I... wait for her? The thoughts were running through my mind. Suddenly I felt my phone vibrated, but I ignored it. I thought it was probably just Ioo who were searching for some friends to gossip with, as always. I sighed heavily and got out of my bed. I was thinking about turning on my computer and chatted with some friends when suddenly I heard a knock on my door. I was wondering who was that because as long as I remembered, people in this house didn't believe in privacy. They would just open the door and come in. No need the owner's permition.

"Yes?" I asked, wanting to know who was that.

"May I come in?" The person behind the door answered.

That voice. I knew it, it was familiar. Oh God, please, please don't tell It was her. I didn't want to see her right now. Please please don't say it was her. I kept silent, didn't know what to say, until that person began to talk again.

"Bebi, look, I'm sorry..." Yes, it WAS Prissy. Oh no, pleaseeee don't say you're sorry. I begged silently. "... I'm sorry for what I've said before. I didn't mean to do it. I know I was so selfish. Ah wait, no, I AM selfish. I never think about you, I always think about what will make ME happy but not about what will make YOU happy. I... I'm sorry..." Her voice starting to get lower and lower, I barely could hear her. I thought she was crying, but I wasn't sure.

"I... I really am sorry..." her voice was starting to choked up. "I know you must be really mad at me right now. And I know you won't talk to me. But at least just hear me out..." I heard she was taking a deep breath, "I've made my desicion and I'll answer your question..." A long silent.

Okay, I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't just stand here while she was probably crying behind that door. I stormed the door open and saw what exactly i was imagining. There, Prissy stand quitely, ready to give whatever the answer was, with tears forming from her beautiful eyes.And suddenly I did the only thing I could think of, I hugged her.

"Ssssh, don't cry dear don't cry. No I'm not mad at you, I was just jealous, that's all. What made you think I won't talk to you? Silly. Sssh now don't cry." I wishpered to her ear while I stroked her hair gently.

"But I.." She hardly finish the sentence, "I've made my desicion...I..."

I hugged her tighter. I didn't like seeing her crying like this and knowing it was me who caused it. "Okay stop it, You don't have to answer it. It was just a stupid question afterall, I should've known, I should've not ask you that question,"

"But I..."

"Ssssh, no need to talk. Let me talk this time okay?" She nodded her head while I still hugging her. "Look Priss, I'm sorry. Whatever it is I just want you to know that I'm sorry. You know? I love you sooooo much and I don't wanna see you cry. So stop crying please? And for my question earlier? No need to aswer that. I'm sorry for what I've said to you, I'm just jealous of you always talking about him, but I realized, if being with him will make you happy so why not? I promise, I'll help you with him."

I held up her head and saw even more tears forming from her eyes. I thought it was a happiness tears, I smiled at her, and kissed her forehead brotherly.

(PRISSY'S POV)

WHAT THE ?! What was he saying? Did he say he'd help me with Koyo? Oh no please don't oh God please don't let those words come out of his mouth.

After I was sure what will my answer gonna be, I left Nchaa's house and was thinking about calling Bebi, so I took my phone and dialed his number. But you know what? He wasn't answering. I tried about 3 times until I got the feeling that he was mad at me. I had to talk to him as soon as possible and finally decided to come over to his house. As I rang the bell, Lucy, her little sister opened the door.

"Heeeeey darling, long time no see" She hugged me.

"Heeey Lucy, yeah kinda busy with school stuff. So what's new?" I hugged her back.

"Naaah nothing much, just the same old boring days." She grabbed my hand, "Here, lets go inside, you must be searching for my brother aren't you?"

I just let out a grin and she laughed. "BROTHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER YOU DARLING'S HEREEEEEE!!!!!!!" I hit her playfully when she used the word 'darling' besides my real name. "Well I guess, he's probably in his own world right now, why don't you just go upstair and knock on his door? I'm going to my friend's house so I'm gonna leave you two alone here, bye sist"

"Oh okay then, thanks Lucy. Bye, have a nice day." With that, I went upstair and knocked on his door.

I thought things were gonna be okay. I thought it was gonna be a perfect conversation without me crying with no clear reason at all. But what happened was the opposite of it.

I cried and got him hugging me tight and stroking my hair gently which i love the way he did that. But the worst part was, I got him to say he'd help me with Koyo. I couldn't say a word anymore. I was speechless. Wasn't this what you want for a long time Priss? Why wasn't you happy? Why tears kept on forming from your eyes? I really didn't know.

He held my head up and gave me his smile. My favorite smile. I wasn't smiling back at him, in fact, there were much more tears forming. Okay, what's wrong with me? He leaned in and brotherly kissed my forehead. How I want the time would stop running at this moment.

"this crazy love thing
you got to let her go
you can't live out time but you never know
this crazy love dream poison's your mind so
you should have put an end to this a long time ago
you should have put an end to this thing a long time ago"

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it's original, it's MINE :)

Sorry for the very very very very very late posting and for my bad sentences. Promise I'll be better next time. Keep on reading, enjoy :D

Can't you see? (Chapter 3)

(BEBI'S POV)

I walked very fast, simply ran, leaving Prissy behind. I could hear her voice was calling at my name. She wanted to continue the talk but I won't. Because all she wanted to say was just sorry, I knew it and I didn't wanna hear that word from her.
I kept on walking until I felt tired, finally I sat down on the side of the street. Not only I didn't get her, I also had my heart broken this time. How stupid I was. I should've known that she won't say YES. I should've known that she still loved that guy. Ugh how I love her 'till death!
I took a deep breat and let it out again. I did it several times in order to clear my head and my mind, but it didn't work at all. I covered my face with two hands, frustated. Just then, I felt something hit the back of my head.


Bebi: "Shit!"

I turned around and looked down to see a small pebble on the ground next to me. I looked up, wanting to know who the hell kick that damn pebble. There, I saw Ioo, my best bud, with a big grin planted on his face.

Ioo: "Whoops. Sorry man, I didn't see you there"
Bebi: "You did it on purpose didn't you?"
Ioo: "Well..."
Bebi: "Why the hell you did that?"
Ioo: "Well.. hmm.. I was just walking around enjoying the fresh air and kicking some pebbles wondering where the hell are you because you were not coming to my house as we've already planted yesterday. And lucky for me, I saw you were sitting here looking frustated. I thought it might be a good idea to kick some pebbles hehehe" -and there he goes again trying to be funny, which it didn't work at all. Yeay for you Brother.
Bebi: "Yeaah verry good idea" -I'm not in the mood for jokes right now.

Ioo looked at me with a weird look for a second, and weirdly he nodded his head like he already knew all my problems. I looked at his winning face wanted to know what he thought he knew.

Bebi: "What?"
Ioo: "What's with the what?"
Bebi: "Uugggh" I got up, wanted to leave but Ioo pulled me and i sat down again.
Ioo: "Whooaa easy there big guy, I was just kidding. So what's wrong?"
Bebi: "Nothing."
Ioo: "No. There's no nothing because I can smell something here."
Bebi: "Smell what?"
Ioo: "Broken heart." -he said that, and once again a big grin planted on his face.
Bebi: "H-how.." -I was going to say 'how do you know' but he cut my words.
Ioo: "I know things bro. What happened actually?"
Bebi: *looked at him hesitate* "you said you 'know things'?"
Ioo: Well it's allright if you don't wanna tell me. I just wanna say, get over it and you'll be better soon, trust me. Well, bye bro!"

He was just 3 meters away from where I was sitting and I pulled him back to sat down beside me. I couldn't stand it, I had to talk to someone. So I told him what's wrong, and as always he listened to me. He was such a great listener, I had to admit that. And once I finished my story he tapped my back.

Ioo: "Why'd you have to be such a baby? You loved her right?"
Bebi: "You know that for sure."
Ioo: "How much?"
Bebi: "untold"
Ioo: "You want her to be happy no matter what?"
Bebi: "If it is the best thing for her, why not?"
Ioo: "How about you make her dream come true?"
Bebi: "Which dream? You know, she has a looooooooot of dreams."
Ioo: "Koyo, duh?"
Bebi: "So I have to... WHAT?"
Ioo: "You know what I mean."
Bebi: "Well, if it will make her happy...."
Ioo: "You don't have to do that if you don't want to."
Bebi: "But I want to. I want to make her happy. That's all."

"This aint the first time she's done it before
And its hard to face the truth
Im the fool in love with the fool
Whos still in love with you"

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it's original, it's MINE :)

A little bit akward I know, I just need to get over this chapter as soon as possible and move on to another chapter. Sorry for the very late posting. Keep on reading, friends. Hope you like it.

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Can't you see? (Chapter 2)

Do you still remember the story called CAN'T YOU SEE that written by Nchaa? Well a view weeks ago I was having a boring days and I thought it wasn't a bad idea to continue the story. So here it is guys, the second part of CAN'T YOU SEE.

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(PRISSY'S POV)

He left and al I could do is just starring at him as he walked away. Speechless. I didn't understand, it was to soon. I couldn't even say a word. He really meant it, it was no joke. But I couldn't just say YES to him when I didn't even know what I was feeling. I loved him, yes I did. But I just couldn't get over Koyo yet.

Prissy: "Ugh this is way to confusing, better talk to Nchaa"

So I went to Nchaa's house. She opened the door and let me in. I told her everything, every detail. Just when I finished, she looked at me with the 'you've-gotta-be-kidding-me' look.

Nchaa: "Stupid!" -she used to say that when she didn't like my idea.
Prissy: "What?"
Nchaa: "Yeah, you know; S-T-U-P-I-D? STU-PID!"
Prissy: "Reason?"
Nchaa: "You should've say YES! You know he loves you! He'll do anything for you just to make you happy. He even left his flight to philipine when he heard you were in the hospital! He left his race! And you know it for sure, he's been dreaming about that race for like... let say FOREVER. And you still don't know what to say?!" -I could possibly tell she wasn't breathing when she said that.
Prissy: "I still love Koyo"
Nchaa: "Forget him!"
Prissy: "Yeah I would if I could" -I saiad sarcasticlly.
Nchaa: "For God's sake, Priss! He doesn't even care about you! You never talk to him even once. Open your eyes, darl! Realize it, he's not the one. You're just wating your time if you leep on loving him. Forget it forget him let him stay out of your mind!" -She sounded really emosional.
Prissy: "You know? You made it sound VERY EASY."
Nchaa: "It IS easy."
Prissy: "Well, if it IS easy, tell me, why can't I do it?"
Nchaa: " Because you never try Priss." -She almost shouted.

Oyeah she caught me right there. She was right. I never try to forget about Koyo. And pluss, I kept on thinking about him more and more often now days. I guess I should try it now. I don't wanna stuck with him forever don't I?

(NCHAA'S POV)

Ugh I can't believe Prissy. I mean, how come she didn't say YES to Bebi when she allready knew that Bebi loved her so much. I hate her when she kept on talking about that Koyo guy, how much she loved him, how much she missed him, bla bla bla bla. Well, I have to admit that it was MY fault that she was in love with him, and now I really regret it.

Nchaa: "Here, let me tell you. Did Koyo ever care to you even once?"
Prissy: "No." -she said softly.
Nchaa: "Did Bebi do that?"
Prissy: "Always."
Nchaa: "Did Koyo ever talk to you even once?"
Prissy: "No." -She said even more softly.
Nchaa: "Did Bebi did that?"
Prissy: "Everyday."
Nchaa: "Did Koyo ever NOTICE you even once?"
Prissy: *shook her head*
Nchaa: "Did Bebi do that?"
Prissy: "*nodded her head*
Nchaa: "HA! You see the result here; Koyo NEVER talked, cared, even he never NOTICED you. While on the other side Bebi loves you so much that he'll do anything for you. And what was that mean? It means that you're STUPID for wasting your time for Koyo..."
Prissy: "I guess I should try"
Nchaa: "Right! Just stop all this madness about Koyo thing.. ? ... wait, what did you just say?"
Prissy: "You heard me."
Nchaa: "No. Repeat!"
Prissy: "I guess... I should... try"
Nchaa: "Really?"
Prissy: "Yeaah, I can't stuck with him forever, Can't I?"

"Stuck on you
been a fool too long I guess
it's time for me to come on home
guess I'm on my way"

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it's original, it's MINE :)

Need some ideas. I will post another chapter as soon as that ideas come. Keep on reading, enjoy :D

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Can't you see? (chapter 1: Nchaa's original)

Bebi: "Tauga Pris aku sayang banget ama kamu aku gamau keilangan kamu istilahnya tuh i dont wanna lose you... yes I wanna hold you... gitu looh Pris."
Prissy: "Iya iya aku tau kok beb."
Bebi: "Terus?"
Prissy: "Terus apaan?"
Bebi: "Kmau terima aku apa nggak?"
Prissy: "Oh tadi kamu nembak?"
Bebi: Iya kali."
Prissy: "Yang bener dong.."
Bebi: "Iya iya aku nembak."
Prissy: "Hmm... imana ya?"
Bebi: "Lah, kok, gimana ya? Katanya kamu sayang ama aku?"
Prissy: "Iya aku sayaaaang banget sama kamu bebi kuuu."
Bebi: "Terus kenapa kamu masih gamau berima aku? Masa kita terus-terus-an HTS-an begini. Kan gabisa!"
Prissy: "Iya aku tau... tapi aku masih sayang banget sama Koyo."
Bebi: Koyo lagi! Kamu masih aja nunggu dia terus! Dia itu ngomong ama kamu aja gapernah Pris. Dan dia gapernah peduli sama sekali ama kamu! Bisa nggak sih kamu terima kenyataan aja?!"
Prissy: "Ih bebi kok ngomong gitu sih? Kan nothing's impossible. kamu cuman ngancurin harapan aku doang sih?"
Bebi: "Yaa.. kamu mesti liat dong, kalo di sini tuh ada aku! Aku, yang sayang ama kamu, yang peduli ama kamu... sakit, tauga? Kamu terus-terusan ngasih harapan kosong gitu tapi ngomongin si ITU lagi di depan mata aku! Aku tuh mesti ngapain lagi Pris? Mesti ngomong apa lagi ama kamu, biar kamu mau ngeliat aku?!! Aku udah kasih kamu apa aja, mau ngapain aja. Kamu bilang sayang sama aku tapi kamunya begitu sama aku! Kamu ngertiin perasaan aku juga dong, tega banget sih kamu ama aku!!"
Prissy: "Nggak beb, maksudku..."
Bebi: "Kamu tuh... Tau nggak sih kalo aku sayang banget ama kamu?!!!" *BEBI PERGI, MENINGGALKAN PRISSY SENDIRI*

"Can't you see that I'm the one
who understands you
been here all along
so why can't you see?
you belong with me
have you ever thought
just maybe
you belong with me"

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It's original, it's Nchaa's :D